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Claiming Thankfulness
Sickness did not sneak up on me. Sickness did not work its way into my life because of any bad health decisions I made. There was no family history waiting to show itself again. In fact, I was perfectly healthy for twenty five years, never a broken bone, rarely a visit to the doctor. My sickness had a cause. My sickness started the day my epidural went wrong. Science is still a mystery to most, and our bodies can do some fascinating things, but no one will ever convince me that my sickness just developed on its own. You don’t go from leaking spinal fluid from a faulty epidural to…
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Faithfulness in the Fog
I remember the lingering distress of feeling trapped in a place of uncertainty. I remember the unending anxiety of not knowing how things would end or if they would ever end at all. I remember being forced to leave my job, a job I loved and had built a relationship with. I remember seeing my bank account dwindle to nothing despite everyone’s efforts to help. I remember wondering how we would make it, where would we go, what would we do. Yet through all of these moments, I remember God telling me to trust Him. Telling me not to worry or be anxious about anything. Not to fear. Not to…
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Don’t Worry about Tomorrow
It was February of 2018 when I decided that I could no longer hold a job. I had to get my health under control. But I will be honest. I did not make this decision willingly. I loved my job. I had been there almost six years, and I had worked my way up to my dream position, complete with my own office. How could anyone expect me to just let go? My husband and I had been comfortable in our jobs. We had been renting an apartment for years. We finally had our first child. We were ready for the next big step of buying a house. I daydreamed…
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The Game of Life
Have you ever played chess? I tend to like games of strategy. I like to plan my moves and arrange and organize my pieces on the board to set my traps. I don’t mean to give anything away, but I suppose I take more of a defensive approach and let the opponent come to me. My video game loving husband calls this “camping”, something I have gathered is comparative to cheating. Since he is usually the opponent anyway, I disagree and say that is how you are supposed to play chess. I like chess because I like planning and having everything in order. I like organizing and knowing where everything…
