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Obedience
There was a time that I was more determined than ever to please God. I was suffering from inescapable pain, and I wanted to do whatever was necessary if He would just remove the sickness from my body. I knew I had to go back to church. I knew I had to read my Bible more and change the music I was listening to. I had to find the sin that was holding me back from my healing. So I began to study the Bible for anything that God said was a sin. I would then be able to remove it from my life. At the time, I kept coming…
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He Chose You
He chose Moses. He chose Esther. He chose David. Daniel. The disciples. Paul. And He chose you. God did not create you just to exist on this earth. He did not create you just to grow up, go to school, get a job, start a family, and retire. Just like He designed every atom in Your body to have a particular function, He created you to play a particular role. He chose you to have a testimony. He chose you to suffer through trials because He knew you were strong, faithful, and obedient. He knew your potential before you even saw it. What an honor that the King of Kings,…
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A Chosen Vessel
Do you ever wonder why you have to go through the trials that you do? Do you question God, wanting to know what you did to deserve this? Wanting to know what He is trying to show you? I know I used to. I used to beg Him to tell me why I was so sick. Even when He told me I was healed in His eyes, here as in Heaven, I still needed to know the reason for this ever happening to me. I needed to know how, in man’s eyes, here on earth, I was supposed to use this. My first thought was that it was punishment for…
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The Search for Healing
There is one thing that I never understood. If God has the power to heal me, why hasn’t He? God, you said that if I had faith so small as a mustard seed, I could move mountains. Surely, I have more faith than that! So why won’t you heal me? I can’t tell you how many times I pleaded with God to remove my sickness. How many times I begged Him to just take it all away, to at least let me find a medication that brought relief! So why wouldn’t He? When I first started developing Intracranial Hypertension, I was filled with nothing but anger and bitterness at what…
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Work for the Lord
You don’t show up for work for five minutes and then leave. You don’t feed your baby for a few seconds and then put them down. You don’t pull out of the driveway and then stop your car. Why do we stop at just saying, “Lord, help me.” Why do we think that we can get by with just reading “the verse of the day” on the Bible app. Why do we think Sunday mornings are enough time in the presence of God? No, you work until your day has ended. You work knowing you will receive that paycheck on Fridays. You feed your baby until your baby is full…
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Don’t Worry about Tomorrow
It was February of 2018 when I decided that I could no longer hold a job. I had to get my health under control. But I will be honest. I did not make this decision willingly. I loved my job. I had been there almost six years, and I had worked my way up to my dream position, complete with my own office. How could anyone expect me to just let go? My husband and I had been comfortable in our jobs. We had been renting an apartment for years. We finally had our first child. We were ready for the next big step of buying a house. I daydreamed…
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The Game of Life
Have you ever played chess? I tend to like games of strategy. I like to plan my moves and arrange and organize my pieces on the board to set my traps. I don’t mean to give anything away, but I suppose I take more of a defensive approach and let the opponent come to me. My video game loving husband calls this “camping”, something I have gathered is comparative to cheating. Since he is usually the opponent anyway, I disagree and say that is how you are supposed to play chess. I like chess because I like planning and having everything in order. I like organizing and knowing where everything…
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The Importance of Prayer
Sometimes, our prayers seem to go unanswered. This can be especially frustrating when you’ve spent a long time praying about your situation. You begin to feel hopeless. Your faith fades. You start to think that maybe it just isn’t meant to be. Oftentimes, you simply give up. When I first got really sick, I could feel the power of prayer. I knew people were out there joining together in prayer for my healing, and I was full of hope. There were people praying for me all over the country. Surely God would hear our cries. I was going to be healed. A year later, I was still sick. Mentally, I…
