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Depression
⊗ Trigger Warning: This following post contains sensitive material about depression and suicidal thoughts. Please proceed with caution. ⊗ Sometimes I feel brave enough to say it. Sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I feel empowered. I feel stronger. I feel a purpose. And then sometimes I feel nothing but shame. A woman once said not everything has to be shared. I had hoped this could be one of those things. But not everything that is needed to be said is easy to be said. This is that. It has been little over a year since I overcame the very lowest part of my life. But I’m not talking about depression alone.…
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Where to Begin
Want to know a secret? I was supposed to launch this outreach a long time ago. It began in the hospital one February night in 2018. While one could argue it was the high dose of IV steroids I had just received, I knew it was something greater. God was speaking to me, and words were pouring into my heart and overflowing faster than I could get them out. I needed to write. I needed to share these words with the rest of the world. But how? When? Where would I even start? I soon saw that none of that mattered. All that was important was that God had begun…
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Joining the Body
From the inspirations of the message shared on Pink Incense August 14, 2019 Watch Here! “Therefore comfort each other and edify one another, just as you also are doing.” – I Thessalonians 5:11 EDIFY – instruct and improve, enlighten morally, spiritually, and intellectually In the early days of being sick, all I could ever do was beg God to remove my pain. Medicine and medical treatment were rarely successful, and I felt trapped in a body of torture. All I could cry was, “Take it Jesus. Please, take it.” My sister was always there for me, praying with me through the pain, specifically telling me to praise Him through the…
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He Chose You
He chose Moses. He chose Esther. He chose David. Daniel. The disciples. Paul. And He chose you. God did not create you just to exist on this earth. He did not create you just to grow up, go to school, get a job, start a family, and retire. Just like He designed every atom in Your body to have a particular function, He created you to play a particular role. He chose you to have a testimony. He chose you to suffer through trials because He knew you were strong, faithful, and obedient. He knew your potential before you even saw it. What an honor that the King of Kings,…
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A Chosen Vessel
Do you ever wonder why you have to go through the trials that you do? Do you question God, wanting to know what you did to deserve this? Wanting to know what He is trying to show you? I know I used to. I used to beg Him to tell me why I was so sick. Even when He told me I was healed in His eyes, here as in Heaven, I still needed to know the reason for this ever happening to me. I needed to know how, in man’s eyes, here on earth, I was supposed to use this. My first thought was that it was punishment for…
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Praise Him
Nothing seems to be going right. It feels like the enemy is weighing down on my back, leaving me no escape from the pain. I’ve taken every pill I possess, but I cant even lift myself off of the floor. The hospital couldn’t even help me. What else am I supposed to do? Praise Him. But how can I praise the Lord when all I feel is hopelessness? How can I thank God for letting me wake to see a new day, when I was woken up to nothing but pain and darkness? How do you expect me to thank God when I’ve lost my health, my job, my car,…
